我們的距離是也來也遠了 :'(

結果金口還是不會開。。。。

Never will you be happy when you get in a relationship without love...

如果有心你自己會去做，不用我開口。

我好久没開心大笑了。。
不是嗎？

還要多久我才能像以前那樣開心大笑呢？

好想那樣啊。。。

愛=笨

All I gain is just a good night????

I don't know how long more I still need to wait..

To be hug while sleeping..
And a sweet kiss before sleep..

Haix.......

:'(

你能懂我的心嗎？
看你這樣心好痛。。
多希望生病的人是我。。
因為我知道我會比你會忍痛。。
但不是打針的痛啦。。
快快好起來好嗎？
我不想看你那麼痛。。。
我也不想因為你而不夠睡，和被你罵。。

I super dislike to bring you to hospital..
It hurts mi so much to see you being drip..

是因為我太有空嗎？
没事做嫌着無聊嗎？

擔心你還給你講,給你罵還給你发脾氣嗎？

Didn't slept well again...

Today first day of work..
Hopefully everything goes well for mi..

I'm worried for you...
Hope you will get well soon...

I start missing you...
This few days I found that the distance between us is getting very very far..

I don't know wat's on your mind..
Wat are you thinking..

Can you tell mi???

一定要記得我的好。。。
不要等到後悔時才記得。。

因為這世上很難再找到像我那麼愛你人了。。。

和你在一起那麼久我不是不了解你。。

而是想讓你多愛我一些。。。

我不知道我能不能和你到老。。。
我想。。可是你想嗎？我們會嗎？我們可以嗎？

没人可以知道。。。
只有你自己知道你想不想，你要不要。。。。

我好想你抱這我睡覺。。。
好想好想。。。

你的吻真的打動我的心。。

可是我知道你還有事没和我說。。
我只想要你坦白。。
真的。。

坦白和我說出心理話好嗎？

你會不會是這世界上最愛我的人嗎？

Time to time I will still view our wedding video..

Touching video I can said...
Love the feel of that video...

Will tears while seeing...

I don't know how much hard work more I still need???

Today we are going to HDB for our flat selection...

Hopefully step by step nearer to our future things will become good for us...

My us doesn't mean only you and mi...

But...... US... I mean...

慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢慢。。。。。。。。

還要多慢？
我天天在等等等等等等等等。。。

不要讓我在等了好嗎？

I felt so bad......
It mi who cause this.. :(

I shouldn't had brought the stuff up...

我等到你開始叫我"Bb"了 :)

希望是好的開始。。
我不知道是好是壞。。
我會害怕。。

我只想開開心心的和你生活。。
哪能不能保證不再做出讓我傷心難過的事？
不要再次傷害我好嗎？
好好的愛我，疼我，關心我好嗎？

人生短短只時年。。
我還能讓你愛我多久？

能和你相遇是緣份。。
能和你在一起也是緣份。。
能和你結婚也是緣份。。

如果不是緣份我莊偉玲會遇見你陳鴻業嗎？

人生遇到過的人很多。。
為什麼是我？為什麼是你？

就因為緣份。。。

話也不多說，心好疼。。

You will never know what the feeling like when you looking forward for "someone" msg/call but there isn't any..

Until you face the feeling...

That is the worst feeling ever...

It is just the same as you love "someone" so much but he doesn't love you...

The feeling is sucks.......
And it killing mi...

我會等到這一天嗎？
等你回心轉意的好好愛我嗎？

我很後悔，真的後悔了。。
我不應該這樣逼你。。

我只是要你好好愛我，多疼疼我才會這樣的。。

你知道我有多摸傷心難過嗎？

只是要你好好愛我結果把事情也弄也。。。。。

為什麼？？:'(

从今天起不要再讓我受傷了好嗎？
我好愛你，好怕失去你。。
所以也請你好好愛我好嗎？

My life now is like playing snake and ladder game..

I fall off from the very top..
Now I'm hurt and this is very hurt..

But who can heal my hurt???

I don't know wat should I do now...

I'm lost very lost...

我的眼淚誰會幫我擦乾？
我的痛誰會把他化成愛？

I need a warm hug now... :'(

這世上還會有誰會疼愛我？
這世上在也没人會疼愛我了。。
我好辛苦好累走不下了。。

没人明白我
沒人疼愛我
没人會想我
没人
没人
没人

為什麼要帶我來又讓我活的那麼辛苦呢？
讓我來到没人愛我的地方？

不想在走了。。
不想
不想
不想

我真的活的很辛苦。。
超辛苦。。

到死都是我的錯。。

為什麼為什麼為什麼！！！

為什麼錯還是在我身上？？

為什麼被講的人一直是我？？

為什麼就没人明白我受到的傷痛？？

好辛苦。。
真的好辛苦。。。

Now then I know..

Without mi around you can go out till late night..

With mi around everyday is an tried day..

That why you don't even bother to msg/call mi..

Coz without mi you will be happier...

That the reason...

Monday....... 18/06/12

Ever since I left on 15/06/12
It had been 2 day plus....

No msg no call no nothing......

This is how you should treat your wife???

This show mi how much I am to you...

When she left you that time you keep msg her, keep call her, go her house there and find her even she didn't pick up your call you still keep looking for her...

Ask her frenz about her etc etc...

What about mi???

No call no msg...
This is the different that I always said...

You treat her better more than mi..

You will plan to bring her out, msg her sweet msg, spent money on her and lot of sweet stuff...

Mi?? What I gotten??
I left till now not even 1 msg or 1 call...
Don't even come and find mi..

See the different???
Go think about it yourself...

This is what you prove mi and show mi...

星期一了。。
你還會記得我是誰嗎？

I'm not going to look forward for your text anymore..

Coz I know you won't bother to care/concern mi anymore...

This few days no even a call or msg from you...

This is what you call it husband???

Lolx.. An unconcern husband...

Then in the first place you shouldn't married mi then..

8點多了。。。
電話也沒有，信息也沒有。。
心好痛。。。
原來我對來說什麼都不是。。。

我好想你。。。

Haix...
Why should I care so much???
Why should I still bother???

When you don't even care or bother about mi???

FUCK....

I always alone ALWAYS will I be...

Keep looking at my phone, keep looking at the time...

Wondering....

Will you text mi??
Will you call mi??
Will you miss mi??
Will you ask mi out today???
Will you? Will you? Will you?

Will I get your msg or call today??

I miss you....

多希望現在電話响是你发的信息。。

I know you never go work today...
But I can't text you...

Coz I promise not to disturb your life...

Haix...

I know you maybe having headache and giddy again...

If not you won't never go work today...

But I can't do anything...
Can't text you can't see you...

Only can post on blog...

How I wish I were with you right now...

But that's only a wish....

But I know that won't be happen...

Please take care of yourself...

You did said once to mi...

不要把電話放在枕套下。。
Coz it will cause headache to you...

I will always remember what you had said to mi...

I miss you so much now....

Miss your voice...
Miss your laughter..
Miss your look...
Miss your text..
Miss sleeping beside you...
And lots more...

But........

I know you will never ask mi back again...

Why can't you just give in to mi???

Can't bear to leave you...
But I had no choice but to leaves..

Coz you're the one who ask mi to leaves...

And I know you won't wanna mi to be back...

Coz I'm just no one to you...

And I'm always the one who gave you trouble and nonsense...

I had move out... And I know this time round this moves will change my life...

I know he won't ask mi back and I know things will get worse for us..

But.......

I jus can't keep giving in...

His attitude towards mi had become worse..
I can't even get an respect from him...

Wat even stuff he did/done never had he though of my feeling...

So why should I still keep quite and stuffer??

I haven't been happy all this while...

No one in this world will understand how much I had gonna through...

I had enough...
Really..

How I wish...................
But it all........

FUCKING LIFE......

Should I stay or go???

Ya I'm just a loser...
And always will I be....

Why should I give in again to you???

Just because you don't wish to delete of your memory???

I won't give in anymore and never will I..

Coz you had never never care about my feeling...

要出門了但我一點也不開心。。。
心結沒打開前去哪做什麼都沒用。。。

Life can be very sweet if u just put a little effort in it..

Like sweet msg or sweet words said...

Buy something for your sweet heart without her asking for...

Bring her out whenever you can even if it just a stroll on the beach or park...

Hug her tight whenever you can even if it just a few seconds...

Walk side by side wif her...

Hold her hand whenever you can even if it just crossing the road...

Kiss her...

Smells her...

Joke with her...

逗她笑...

Bring her to places she loves...

Respect her...

Tied her hair for her...

Help her to dry her hair...

Tell her she is beautiful...

Tell her how much you love her...

Changes your password related to her...

Cook for her...

Never leaves her alone...

Hug her tight when she is scare...

Hold on to her even she said she is leaving...

Never scold her with vugular language...

Post something sweet or some happy moment wif her...

Ask her not to smoke even you are smoking...

Write her love letter...

Look after her when she fall sick...

Never say any hard words on her...

Tell her how much she colours your world...

Gives her a secure relationship...

Never hurts her feeling...

Never use wat your ex give you...

Never kept anything that belong to your ex...

Think of her feeling before making any decision...

Never let her felt left out...

Talk to her whenever you feel that she did something you don't like or wrong but in a nicer way...

Never get a 3rd party in...

And lots more...

You don't need to have lot of money to be with her...
But you just need lots of effort in her...

Do anything that can make her stay...
Don't wait till she had left then you regret...

Coz once she had left....
It hard to get her back...

你永遠都不會知道你錯在那里，不好在那里。。。

What I had give in and done for you...

Look after you whenever you are sick or drunk...

Do things or give surprise to you during Anniversary/Birthday...

Buy your fav food when I'm out ((without you))...

Plan for oversea holiday...

Buy things like watches, shirt, pants, perfume and etc... (( without you asking for it))

Whenever we quarrel at night the next morning I will always pretend nothing happen...

Whenever Anniversary/My Birthday even there is isn't any gift or surprise I had never even said a single words...

Give in to you even when said you will choose Bike rather than mi...

Feed you eat whenever you are sick...

Help you clean up when you are sick...

Hold on to you even you said you want to divorce...

Give your family member say mi ((behide my back)) even when I didn't did anything...

And lots more...

Ask yourself wat can/did you done for mi???

I don't know really don't know...

There is so much reason that I can just leave you why should I still hold on???

There is hundred and thousand of reason I can leave you but all because of one simply reason that why I'm still holding till now...

I really don't know how long I can still hold on to..

I'm losing faith in this relation already...

It a man really loves you he will do anything sweet for you without you asking for it

But if he doesn't loves you not matter wat you ask for he won't even gives a single CARE to it...

All I wanted is just a sweet post from you.. But it seem so hard now..
Last time without asking you will post it yourself..
But that was the past and NOT now..
Things had changes..
And it had changes that FUCKING much..
Last time not matter how we quarrel you will NEVER F here or F there..
But now whenever we quarrel the word FUCK will come out dame easy from your msg..

I know.......

We won't turn back like how we use to be ANYMORE!!!!

Sometime just wonder who I am to you... F**K

Wat a one month anniversary...
06 June 2012
SAD TO THE MAX!!!!

Yes it time to let go everything...
「你走你的陽關道，我過我的獨木橋」

人生中就大的錯就是認識你。。
我承認康開始我是很開心很快樂。。
但是之從那件事情发生後。。
我好像沒那麼開心了。。
太多的為什麼太多的問號。。
和你講了你又生氣。。
把問題和事情收在心理就好。。
不要多講不要多問。。。
可是心理好不舒服。。
可能是時候了吧。。。
放下使用的事從心來過。。
我要的是快樂不是委屈。。

只能哭，哭完候還是哭。。。

偉玲心理好難受好痛苦。。。
眼淚一直網下流。。
我只能一個人靜靜的哭起。。
為什麼我需要活的那麼辛苦？？
為什麼我就不能夠有個會疼愛我，關係我，了解我，愛我的好男人？
難道我就不是女人嗎？
為什麼其他人能擁有的我偉玲就不能嗎？
我受到的委屈因經很多很多了為什麼我還要在受到這種的黛玉？？？